The Graceless Heart

Your Body Is Your Home. Don’t Burn It Down

I.
What happens when the foundation gives in heaves?
I do not want to die
But she who must go on does not feel the same
She shakes
& I can feel her skin blue
I am no longer living in this body

II.
Where do I run when the fire starts?
The smoke consumes me
My first & last thoughts are always of you.

Unwanted

Clovers grow in my heart where you used to heal me
Now fairy rings in the ground
Empty, hollow enclosures
the rejected “I love yous” pile up in the backseat of our car
like heavy snow
I need you so close
It’s a bargain of breath I need
Your skin against mine
To make this day in & day out worthwhile

Love Haze

We made each other come alive
And I never minded the pain of what that entailed
Our highest highs were worth the lowest lows
Or at least, I remember it that way.

I have captured moments I never wanted to let go
Like the fire in your eyes from the moment you woke, pristine & jade
Or
Kissing under the rain, mud-ridden & dirty
Heavy metal music stomping through the air, passion dancing at our feet

I wish I could feel the way we felt together again
Pure electricity flowing through our harrowed hands
The air thick around us at every breath.

 

M.N.R.R

It leaves a bitter taste in my mouth
When I pass New Rochelle
I almost felt as if the train slows down
Just to let me know

“I’m leaving you again.”
You’re leaving me again.

Warrior

 

I know the sound of your heart
It rings like cherry pits clinking at the bottom of a glass bowl
It sounds of burning rubber skidding on double yellow lines
I know it bleeds sweet & burns.

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It’s somebody else
With red hair maybe, long flowing
With pale blue eyes and milky skin
She stops me in my tracks
She stops me like love
But I do not come to her for love

It’s someone else
You work with him
Dark in demeanor, cool to the touch
He smells of charcoal & sex
And purrs as he writhes in the pleasure

This isn’t to be facetious
I simply cannot help myself

I have resisted my temptations
And given into every impulse
I have employed both sided of the coin
Yet the final outcome is always the same

I am addicted to the taste of debauchery
There is mischief and hell following behind me like a clean up crew

It’s someone else
As it always is
And I fall into step with the devil herself

She always comes back to me
To whisper in my ear & mention all the fruit I have missed for my mouth
I will not stop until my tongue is dripping with the wet juice of peaches & limes.